Current mood:	restless
Current music:	radiohead - the bends

pay no mind to my mindless jibberjabber
missing classes makes me feel simply awful all day long...but sleeping feels so good...i know i should get up and that i am fucking myself over and that i'm gonna feel shitty but i still go back to bed because its so comfortable...i try to stay up forever because if i sleep, i know i won't have the willpower to get up. It doesnt matter what time i go to sleep or how much i've slept in the last week, if i go to sleep and try to get up for anything..i will sleep through it. they're running a promo on Comedy central, "7,000 people die in their sleep every year, don't become a statistic, stay up..."

Mr. Iwantodie is trying pretty hard to come back...but Mr. Hopefulenlightened is working overtime to crush those feelings, bottle them up and look on the bright side....

i think i did pretty good on my business test, but i really wasn't taking it, so lets hope the adderall knows its marketing and mutual funds...

I was restless all day or at least the hours that i was awake...it may be because i ran out of cloves and i'm withdrawaling and addicted but it could be that i am fed up with my stupidity...i missed dinner again because after my test i did some errands and then watched dbz and friends...

i try to avoid regret because i can't do anything about things that have happened and it only makes me miserable..but elliot and matt have been giving me little in's that seem like they are trying to invite me to hang with them, letting me in on what they are doing and, telling me that i should come to elliots some time to play gta4 and stuff, i dont know why but i react really weird and thinking back on it, it must seem like i dont wanna hang with them, i should fix that but if i think about it i'll only be weirder...also jardin has been giving me little in's too and i took one tonite...

i was talking to Jardin and he loves DBZ so thats awesome..its really getting good so we have stuff to talk about...i hung out for a while down his end of the hall..he's gonna try to get me to stop smoking and i say all for that, i hate it, i only smoke once a day and i usually do it far from the dorm by myself because i'm ashamed because i think its so gross & if i hang with the smokers in my building, not only am i intimidated by them but if i get in with them i'd never quit... i just do it for an excuse to get out and relax outside for myself during the wee hours of the AM...

i got the envelopes for mail, so maybe tommorrow i will finally mail my crap...and i got Murphy to sign the video rental slip so tommorow i should go get that crap...

hey well i just hit an up note...due to constant exposure i basically talk to everyone on my floor comfortably now, which it just sort of hit me and i guess i shoud be happy, but theres something wrong with my brain

seems Matt is coming to JMU to visit this weekend, and i am always a better human being when im with my friends so this should be great, i was so comfortable when i went to Edinboro and i made more friends in one night there than i have in months here...

...i am thoroughly confused with this guy right here...