Danny Who's Journal

Subject:	beyond comprehension
Time:	1:17 am.
Mood:	bewildered.
Music:	Radiohead - Punch Drunk Lovesong.

my mom called and out of the blue told me that Mr. Flannery, a neighbor, a family friend, and technically my uncle twice removed is dead. I am dumbfounded, i have dealt with death before, and i was not even that close to him but i can't understand...the world is changing and i am so detactched from it. I can't even contemplate going home to a place that is becoming more different every day. It doesn't make sense, Mr. Flannery was always there, a part of my life and world and now he's not and it just doesn't compute...partly because i'm so far away, removed and now i have to deal with this news by myself, where i have always in the past, had others to cooperatively deal with loss. I have been trying to look on the bright side of things for the past few days to change my outlook, but there is nothing, nothing positive about things. He fell off the roof and hit his head when trying to repair something on the chimney or something. That doesn't happen, does it? They warn you be careful, you could fall and break ur neck, but that doesnt happen...people fall and break arms and bruise ribs they don't die...i remember on Family Matters, Carl fell off the roof a few times in one episode and it was comic, it doesn't make sense how this could happen. He leaves 6 kids and a wife and i dont know what they are gonna do. He wasn't that much older than my parents, just out of the blue and it doesnt make any sense. It makes me think about preciousness of life and on being more careful, i mean i never worry about hitting my head, or jumping off tall things, i have done that for fun in the past and i have really been downplaying the importance of life lately, i dont know what i'm saying and i'm rambling..I feel guilty to be thinking of myself, but this is the kind of thing a God would do to get me out of my rut, to make me realize how precious life is, but I'm not that important and i'm dicey on Gods existance and its not fair to Mr. Flannery. i went for a walk after i heard for about 2 hours, i can't really remember Mr. Flannery without a smile or a joke...he'd often complain about something or mention something, after church but he always turned it into a joke and laughed about it, thats a good way to be remembered i suppose....

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Subject:	'love that perfect frown, honest eyes'
Time:	11:56 pm.
Mood:	silly.
Music:	Ok Go - Get Over It.

halloween...i say its pretty much all or nothing when it comes to dressing up, i mean one accessory is fine, i mean that is participating without dressing up and that fine by me, but most of the kids on my floor half assed it and dressed up in their own clothes and went as thugs. there were a few creative costumes like a simple clark kent costume with a superman costume under khakis and half open shirt, and two kids from the second floor who went as Ace and Gary, the Ambiguous Duo. And the other half of the kids on the floor did not partake which is also fine, and i hung with them all night. Jardin always includes me in stuff, he's a good kid, he just brought some girls by my room cuz they wanted to meet me cuz they heard i was sexy, but they probly heard from Jardin, and boy were they wrong.

i did not dress up and theres a few reasons, i couldnt find a blond wig for Kurt Cobain and thats cuz i didnt go to the store; i didnt want to have to explain to people that i was Gohan from DBZ all day; i had no particular place to go; and all the costumes dont really work with glasses and red eyes. However i switched back to contacts today but i wasn't sure if i could go the day. Even tho i wasted an opportunity to dress up and be creative and funny i had more fun just hanging with Jardin and everyone down the end of the hall.

my brother dave rented an ALF costume from a costume shop in boonton, and i'm jealous and i need to see the pictures. He wore it to school and apparently did well with it. Me and marc plan to rent it during the winter and just go to the mall and stuff wearing it. We also are gonna go to a nets game during the break and we all know the Florida plan, so my future is set.

Ok Go is gonna be the next big thing, like the Strokes were last year, i knew the Strokes were gonna be big last year before it happened, and i knew about the Gorillaz being big almost a year before they made it. And Ok Go is on the same path, being groomed for the fasttrack. A new sound, fresh, energizing music and with a buzzworthy MTV2 at 4 in the morning obscurity and a solid CD.

"you say 'its dinner with your sister sweetie,' but darling look how you're dressed, your best, suggests, a different kind of guest"

Tom Morello, Chris Cornell, Tim Commerford & Brad Wilk pulled a fast one on me. They sent out all types of rumors that Rage minus Zack and Cornell were playing together, but they were keeping the name Rage Against the Machine, and then they sent out rumors that they weren't gonna release an album, then they had some songs leaked under the name Civillian, and NOW they are Audioslave, and they have an album coming out next month, and enough material for a second CD. I joined there promotional underground online army and the songs that i have heard are pretty good...they aren't very politically minded lyrically anymore but the stuff isn't bad...But Tom said that the stuff on the internet now is not the stuff on the album. He said the new stuff is much better, he doesnt care if u steal the CD online but just make sure u get the newest best version possible because they are very proud of the album....

'o its such a drag, what a chore, o ur wounds are full of salt, everythings a stress, and whats more, its all somebodys fault...'

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