Danny Who's Journal

Subject:	dont worry about me, ill be killing by noon
Time:	6:42 am.
Mood:	contemplative.
Music:	dave matthews for hours.

i found out what i was doing when i jammed my door open on fri and passed out...i had the video camera on a tripod on top of my desk in the corner of the room and apparently i pressed record, jammed the door open, made a crafty face like i had some crazy plan, and sat down to watch tv and was asleep within 1 minute...i watched the tape when i was doing my business commercial and in the middle there is hours of me sleeping..i guess i was assuming someone to come in to do something worth filming or something...

...i was looking at Alexis' new college picture trail and i started crying...aural chris carrabba is just an open invite for misty eyes...i know im going to florida soon but nevertheless she is gone...she looks happy and older..prettier and more mature...its just a reminder that i have lost the battle with time, the past is gone and things cant be the same no matter how much i avoid the future....

now david and marc have both received and played their Floridian Dreams CD's and they both seemed to enjoy it as much as I do, this is the first picture i made over a month ago that inspired the project...its not great quality but i have no desire to touch it up...On the plane to Florida...........soar

i freaked out today when i thought the business presentation was due tomorow and i havent met with my group in over a week and dont have anything done really but some rough unedited film for the commercial...anyway i left a frantic message on Marydan's answering machine about meeting with her and then i looked at a calendar and lo and behold the 19th is next tuesday, wooo hooo so tommorow im gonna meet Marydan and Sung...i also register for classes for next semester between 315 tommorow and 315 on the 18th...maybe just redo my schedule from this semester except for business...

i slept all day on Mon but i played it off on recooperation from the weekend, but there was no excuse for tuesday, i wasnt even sleeping, just scared to leave the room...so i stayed up as to not miss Gcom, we watched the first half of Before Sunrise, which is a good film..the teacher gave me a look of exagerated surprise, and why would u even bother coming to class shaking of the head, at seeing me in class..i just smiled and waved...at this point going to class is probably just practicing for next semester when i take the class again...im so afraid of everything..my mom said it has to do with my sleep habits...i havent gotten food in a dining hall in 3 days, i have been making ramen & easy mac, eating tons of cereal & milk or going to sheetz and wasting money..the cheesesteaks arent cheap but its only 98 cents for a hotdog with mustard, id be a fool not to eat 10 a day...that may be my new 3am fix, not smoking but hotdogs...i want a job in the city just so i can get a hotdog and pretzel on the corner before work, at lunch and after work...

:/despite the fact the past is gone i can still wallow in it...i spent the night reading old word files from hilarious old AIM convos....

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