Current mood:	scared
Current music:	...u could look inside and see whats on my mind...

all i want is another chance to fuckup
i had my business final, and it was good to see Mardan again, i really enjoy talking to her and being around her...it sucks that i have no excuse to see her anymore unless i get lucky enough to have another class with her. Neuman was there too because 2 classes were combined for the final and i havent seen him in a while since i dropped out of Gcom.. i got my results back and i got an 89..im happy but its not perfect for a test i should have aced, i know at least one was an eraser mark mistake cuz it said i had put no answer and i know i didn't leave any blank...so i end up with a middle of the road B in business.

i took my history final and i was scared but i'm thinking ok this is going ok, i know most of this stuff and i finish the test and hand it in and leave and as im walking out of the building, i hear :dan?.. dan! hang on
(i turn around, shocked to see Dr. Hyser)
daniel: hey um hello
Hyser: where have you been
danwho: uh uh i've been aroun...i mean yeah i havent been in class in a few weeks
(im nervous as hell and he's standing right over me, a bit too close, so it adds to my discomfort)
dan: you came running all the way out here to see why i havent been in class?
Hyser: yeah i was wondering what you're doing taking my final if you havent been in class in awhile
me: well i read the book and um you know tried to study
Hyser: o k, well i guess you could give it the old college try..but you haven't been to discussion since October, and you've missed some lectures and i was wondering why you'd take the final
danny: i uh uh... What, i should have just given up and called this class quits?
(silence...Hyser takes a step back.)
Hyser: Welcome to college, Dan.
DPS: oh i know. i know. I have made more mistakes this semester than just this class.
Hyser: well... (walks away)
Szarejko:(turning to leave)um..sorry, i guess?

as im walking home i realized that there were so many more things i should have said..i really wanted to compliment him on his passionate lectures, and i should have asked if he meant that i had no hopes of passing the class..because there is no attendence grade except the discussion summaries that we hand in once a week and thats how he knew i havent been to discussion classes..so if i pass all the tests and papers i should still pass because the discussion class and summaries is only a small part of the grade.. but he seemed like he was insinuating that i couldnt pass so why take the final and if i wasnt so scared i would have asked those important questions but i just went blank and wanted to end the conversation as soon as possible...

so im done with finals and i still feel like shit...

joey sent me this picture that really made my day...it was from dom's graduation party..back when i used to be funny...i had completely forgotten about it..i love jokes you forget about and they come back like 6 months later out of no where...

in under a week ill be on a plane to florida

i forgot to cancel my netflix free membership so they win, they got my $20 for another month

we're supposed to get a freezing ice storm tonight and tommorow that could knock out the power lines, i will be bored out of my gourd if im here with nothing to do and no power until Fri...i mean i didnt bring a boardgame or puppets for a show...