Current mood:	calm
Current music:	Mc Vikram- Welcome to India

muffled screams, complacent silence and lots of tv
like lilo and nani from lilo and stitch, stick my head into a pillow and scream!!!

this journal is therapeutic, i need to write to get my feelings out but when i sit in my room and do nothing i get braindead and have nothing to say
this weekend i tried to avoid all human contact except matt, i wouldn't leave my bldg except for food, and i only left my room to go to the bathroom.

stef scolari (i dunno how to spell it stef)[sclafani, i was way off!] feels the same way about a lot of stuff as me so thats really good to know and have someone to talk to

k bake has the same feelings when it comes to girls and relationships as me and we are very similar which is also very good to hear

all my friends are great they put up with my bitching about my sudden and uncharacteristic unhappiness and offer helpful advice that i am probably not going to follow

i have a week of testing this week and i am really not doing well with school, im really afraid, as someone who doesnt care about anything, can be about my grades.

elliots at home for the next few days having his tonsils out, so me and matt are hanging out more, eating and watching a lot of tv.

i've been doing a lot of pushups and jumping rope with an invisible rope and eating protein bars which are really starting to taste good.